Monologue In the Middle of the Night

Oh, babe! I’m sitting here, just watching you sleep…and I still can’t get over this incredible miracle God has given me!

Okay, so maybe that’s being a bit selfish. I mean, I know that He didn’t…couldn’t have sent you back just for my sake! So many people love you and you enrich every life you touch. Yet I still can’t help feeling like I benefit the most!

Huh! Listen to me! You know, a year ago, I would have laughed at the idea that I’d be sitting here, in the middle of the night, contemplating the infinite goodness of some Higher Power. After all the years we’ve spent out on the streets, all the things we’ve seen… Well, after all that, I guess it’s really not too surprising that I had stopped believing that such a Power could exist. And if It did, that it certainly didn’t fit my idea of kind or caring. But now…let’s just say that I’m much more open minded on the issue these days!

What time is it? It’s probably almost time for your meds again…and I should go out to the kitchen and see if I can find anything you might be able to eat before then. I hate to wake you—you’re sleeping so peacefully tonight. But you need to eat, babe. You’re so thin! And you know what a number the pills do on you on an empty stomach!

It…it scares me how fragile you still are! But then I close my eyes and remember how you looked only a few months ago… Hell! You already look better even than when I brought you home last week! I know it’s hard for you to see it, but you’re doing it, Starsky! You’re getting well again.

I know it’s hard, buddy! What you’re going through. This hasn’t been much of a miracle for you, has it?

But, God, Starsk! I’m still so, so grateful that you’re here. Like I said, I know it’s selfish…but I don’t care! I need you, partner! I…I know now that I can’t make it without you around. So just stay with me a little longer and, I promise you, I’ll do everything in my power to help you through this! And I’ll never take this precious gift of mine for granted again!